The reason I am the way I am: All about a Taurus:

"XSTROLOGY: #Taurus can be mysterious; you don't always know what is going on inside their minds"

When you come across a Taurus female, the first thing you will notice about her is her undefeatable emotional strength. She is capable of handling the severest of problems, without shedding even a single tear. She has the infamous Taurus temper, but it is seldom displayed. Atleast not until the provocation is too much to digest. She is as feminine as any other female, without the unnecessary tantrums. A Taurus woman has no desire of dominating her husband. She will let him handle the reins, infact this is what she secretly desires.

A Taurus woman wants a real man, who can make her proud of himself as much as she is proud of herself. However, if he fails in his role, she will take the control in her own hands. Neither will she act like a mewing kitten, nor like a roaring lioness. She is independent and has a mind of her own, but she does not want to dominate in the relationship. Taurean women do not see social status while making their friends. They want to be friends with people who do not hide their true nature and come across as they really are.

Beauty

Ruling planet Venus bestows beauty and the thorough enjoyment of all five senses upon Taurus. The ascetics of life are not lost on this sign, and many of the things they do in life are guided by the principle of beauty.
Because of this, Taurus is a highly sensual sign, one that values the decadence of a double-layered chocolate cake, revels in the fragrance of expensive colognes and perfumes, and delights in the feel of cashmere lined gloves. If it feels good against the skin, goes down smoothly past the lips, and pleasantly pleases the palette, Taurus will love it!
This love of beauty can also be Taurus's downfall. One particular Taurus personality trait it that of over-indulgence. Feeling sick to the stomach or carrying around an extra five pounds is not unheard for Taurus. As such, Taurus needs to learn and practice moderation in all things.

Taurus and Friendship:

A Taurus is an excellent friend. Taurus has few close friends as opposed to many acquaintances. The few people they hold dear to them are guarded and protected. Their friends are treated like family and they are fiercely loyal and dependable. Taurus loves to be the host or hostess. Although not a total social butterfly, they can be shy around strangers, the people who Taurus let into their lives are lavishly catered to when Taurus decides to throw a party, they decorate and present everything lavishly. Taurus will always pamper themselves and their close group of friends

What it's like to date a Taurus Woman: (in case you were wondering)

Taurus women are masters in the art of seduction. She will get what she wants but her patience is incredible, she will wait for what she wants She needs stability and security and will not tolerate a man who is not straight with her and leads her along with uncertainty in the future. She is the old-fashioned type, the type of woman who is associated with the drive-in soda shop days of the 60's. She is down to earth, protective, supportive, loving, devoted and loyal. She is openly affectionate in a relationship. Taurus women is perfect for the man who likes to be nurtured and pampered, providing you are loyal and devoted. She has a lot to give but she requires a lot in return. Remember, the Taurus woman is very sensitive although she might not seem so on the exterior. Court her and constantly try to impress her and you will win her heart and she will be yours. Cross a Taurus woman, and her temper will flare, she will become extremely stubborn. If you ever break her trust, it will be nearly impossible to gain it back again.

XSTROLOGY   #Taurus have the best love.

Keep it 100!

Keeping it real-Staying true to yourself, your faith and constantly seeking the truth. You know you are keeping it real when you do not harm yourself or anyone around you physically mentally or spiritually. Not being fake or influenced. Being true to yourself and your values, but more importantly, being true to innate values that all people acknowledge as respectable. Not inhibiting yourself or pretending to be something your not; but also not following dominant values that should not be acceptable.~Urban Dictionary.
If you are not real then are you make believe? One's realness is always being questioned nowadays. Why is that? I still haven't figured out the answer to that question but I will say that you should not have to prove your "realness" to anyone. When getting to know some one's personality you can tell that they have a sense of being true and if you feel that they are fake keep it moving. No harm done. Trying to challenge a person's realness is not worth the time. If you have to ask someone to keep it real then there is already a lack of trust and you should know not the associate with that person.
 Being real to me is being true to yourself and not having to constantly prove that you are real. Yes I keep it real, I am who I am I don't live for anyone but myself. If someone were to challenge that then I say keep it moving if you think I am fake then don't associate with me. Leave me be.
Real people know boundaries and are not intentionally mean or vulgar because that's not real it's ignorance
"If you keep it real with me, I'll keep it real wit you" -Method Man

100% Haterproof

"And I can tell that their hating by the look in their eyes."
I love when people talk about haters. It is so funny to me. Everybody is so focused on having haters and whose hating that people are forgetting about living life.
I heard someone say once that if you don't have haters then you are not succeeding. I disagree with that statement 100 percent. No I am not going to be campaigning for world peace like I am in a beauty pageant but I will say this: People will get a lot more accomplished if they disregard the haters and focus on the task at hand. Haters thrive off of tearing you down and throwing you off track. Pay the haters no mind. Ignore them to the point you are still doing what you need to do to succeed while the haters are sitting there looking stupid.
"There they go again them haters" -The Unit (Queen Latifah)

Rememberance

To grieve is to feel sorrow as the dictionary defines it. The stages of grief are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
I was watching Kim's Fairytale Wedding on E! the other night and it brought up at lot of old feelings that I had bottled up inside. Kim lost her father and she wanted him to be apart of her wedding ceremony so she was going through old clothing looking for material to cut a heart out a sew it in her dress in remembrance of her father. She broke down because she was overwhelmed because she missed him so much. I can relate and understand where she is coming from because I too lost my dad.
Everybody experiences loss. Some more than others, its a part of the journey of life. No one really knows how one feels. And during that time there is nothing that really comforts you because you do not have that loved one near. Speaking personally I learned to cope with losing a loved one at an early age.
The year was 1998 I was 14 (yes I am dating myself) and my life was what I define as perfect. I wanted for nothing. My parents gave me everything I ever wanted or needed.
My father had been in remission from kidney cancer for 6 years. Suddenly he became ill and that is when my perfect world turn upside down. Everything was happening so fast doctors appointments, in and out of the hospital. I never experienced the death of a loved one and did not think it could happen in my perfect world. Boy did I have a lot to learn. On February 1,1998 at 8:30 pm my mother woke me up from a sweet slumber and told me my father had passed away. I could not believe it. The doctors had sent him home from the hospital so I thought he was getting better. It was my fathers wish to be home with his family his finally days. I ran downstairs frantically to see if she was telling the truth. I saw my brother sitting there across from his hospital bed with his head in his lap. I thought my father was still breathing since there was some kind of air apparatus on the bed. But my mother was right he was gone. Being young I could not understand why. I am also a bit ashamed to say that I was angry at God for taking my father away from me. I was constantly questioning why. I have heard from older people in the church that we should not question God but I could not understand so I did. Why? To this day I still haven't gotten a direct answer but I have gotten understanding as I have grown for a naive little girl into a constantly growing woman.
I was angry for years. I still have my moments but its apart of the grieving cycle I will call it instead of a process. In this cycle one can go back and forth through the different stages in the cycle.  I look at it as if it were equivalent to the circle of life with a bunch of arrows criss-crossing between stages. It is definitely a learning experience that no person or book can tell you exactly how to get through it. Yes the are tools but one has to learn and cope on their own.
I am now 28 and have dealt with more loss but non greater than the loss of my father. I get through it by remembering the good times. His laugh, his "hip" sayings, his wisdom kindness. My father was the most self-less kind hearted man until this day I have ever known. He had a gentle soul he was so friendly he knew everyone. I did not know him to have any enemies. Wow he was truly and angel that God needed by his side in heaven. I am proud to say that he was my dad!

"Tell em why you mad"

Facebook is a place where they ask: What's on your mind?? Some use it to stalk their mates or crushes others use it to keep in contact with their family and closest 5000 friends. Facebook is a social network to stay connected. POINT BLANK PERIOD
I recently saw a status of an acquaintance and this person was going on about "twitches ain't this" and she was going on and how about how said twitch was promiscuous and giving it up to everyone. And why you can't take care of your kids and don't have a pot to piss in blah blah blah. A question kept playing over and over in my head: Is another twitches twat worth the drama and raising your blood pressure and getting hot and bothered a ruining your day. The answer is NO! If you are doing what you need to be doing to take care of you and yours then why should it matter if a twitch is giving her goodies away to everyone MORE POWER TO HER! Don't claim to not gave a flying monkey's ass about other twitches and then turn around and have a twitch ruin your whole mood
If there is no harm directed towards you and yours then KEEP IT MOVING!! You can not control other people behaviors. No matter how hard you try there is no way. So instead of wasting time worried about other twitches and babysitting other twitches twats, take care of self and worry about where you and your child are going to lay your heads at night. Keep up with you own pot.

WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME?

 I was at a gathering last night and people were talking about any and everything under the sun.  So this female amongst the group of people to contradict herself between the different topics and I guess previously she had stated how she judges a book by its cover. I began to tune in on the conversation because this is a subject that I have always had a strong opinion about. She then began to explain herself stating that she believes that first impressions are everything and her mind is made up after a quick once over and her mind is made up. I only agree with her on the first part of her statement. Yes first impressions are everything. But I believe in variables. Then another person says yes I may look at someone and pass judgement but before swearing them off I will give them the benefit on the doubt. BINGO! High-five for him we are in agreement. Thank you for stating what I was thinking. So the conversation went back and forth between the two sides about one's personal appearance, social status and things like that. WHO CARES, I think to myself. None of this should matter. The female then began to quote Tupac's song  Only God can judge me and that is where stopped listening completely.
All this reminds me of my favorite Bible verse that I would quote in choir rehearsal as a teenager Matthew 7:1 Do not judge, or you too will be judged. Yes,  it is hard for someone not to pass judgement, in fact I believe it is human nature whether stating something negative or positive.

You should live with no regrets, and if someone is not happy with your decisions in life or you don't live up to their off the wall expectations, and may I mention are  a non-mf'in  factor in your lives,  then don't deserve the luxury of getting to know you at all.  You should not have to bend over backwards to please someone who is always going to have a negative connotation about what they think they know.

 And again I state: WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME?

People people people lets take ownership of our own lives and not worry about what other people think about us. At the end of the day its you and your thoughts that you live with, its between you and your higher power.